Inspiration

Update: Life back to normal. Not lethargic anymore as stated below. Now I need the inspiration to write a short story. Next week will be an academic week, long tests and quizzes scheduled all over the place so I'll need to work on my short story fairly soon or risk losing myself beneath reviewing and the like. Sir Pulan said it should be realistic, and to make it easy he said we should draw from experience. Now if drawing from experience is the case, what is there better to write about than a page from one's lovelife? Nah, that'll be too cheesy. Though it won't be that hard for me, I have enough material to make a telenovela with. Ha, I just reminded myself that I never really forgot about that. Its always been there, at the back of my head, annoying whenever something reminds me of it, and believe me, there's always something to remind me of it. I must clear my head of this - "distraction". Something should inspire me to write about something soon. Something else. Where are the muses when you need them?

Feeling lethargic.....

Sorry if I had to use that word, I had just been seeing it all the time when I play Cybernations. It means feeling as if you have no energy and no interest in doing anything, which is exactly what I've been feeling the past few days. Its the second day classes have been cancelled, can't really cheer for that cuz I've been dying to do something worthwhile. I'm so bored that when I wake up from sleep I feel even more bored. I even haven't been able to update my blog (until now anyway) and add the new things I've been planning like a shoutbox. And the rain, my God the rain.. I haven't seen that amount of water fall before. I was like, "Damn that's alot of water". Can't go to school, watch a movie, or even play with my friends in the local shop. Oh well, better just study for that test we'll have this friday...

NAKAKA ASAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My parents have finally put their foot down: NO MOUNTAINCLIMBING. Its....UGHHH!!! Annoying!!! They won't even let me try!! Freakin ^&*%$^*&(!!!!! I don't know if I'll just be a good son and listen to their advice guided by wisdom,tempered by time or be independent and confront them to what I like or just backdoor my way to what I want. Its just,.. AGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! %*%$^$@#$&%$&&!

Sadista ang mga nasa ESS! Haha. Imagine making us drink a mix of Raw egg, Kimchi, Wasabi and Tomato Sauce! It was ok actually, and once you get to the Kimchi bits it wasn't that...disgusting.. That was part of a series of challenges they made us do in the ESS orsem. it was alot of fun and I got to meet alot of new friends. I met my classmates who are ES majors during the orsem. They were surprised to see me there, but I just entertained them with my application story(for those of you who don't know, I'm suppose to choose ES, not DS). They say I should shift, but meh...I guess i'm fine where I am already. Still, I'll always be an environmentalist and maybe an "ES major" at heart. Hehe.

Now somebody just said I'm judgemental, but don't want to tell me why. Now I wonder, WHY? Not just why do they think I'm judgemental, but also why they don't want to tell me. I like to hear honest opinions about myself(now just because you read this don't go peppering me with your opinions all at once) so that I know what I'm like to other people. Now I wonder, why am I judgemental?

Must....learn....TIME MANAGEMENT!!!

Things just suddenly piled up on me. Next week I have a talk to attend on monday, 6k runs M-W-F, home org GA which I'll probably miss anyway, a project proposal in LM,a report for ES lab and 5 mini-esssays due by friday, a long test also, and a benefit concert that I still have to make up my mind on attending. Well, I guess I can't really complain - I mean, I still do have a pretty easy schedule if you ask some of the older students. Like what Kram said, "Learning is one thing... Applying is another."

My parents are still trying to discourage me from my application to the Loyola Mountaineers, saying I'm too "frail" to do something like that. Even if I don't want to tell them, what I want is to prove something to myself - That I can do it. I want to push myself to my limit, even it that means I'll have to go behind their back or fight them for it face to face. And even if I can't make it, I'll be happy that I at least tried to do it, not just thinking what could have happened if I did.

Ha! I found my Arnis jacket. One of my blockmates did take it by mistake. Whats wrong is I asked all them that day. Just goes to show you how nobody really listens to me.

Classes are suspended today because of the heavy rains. Caused alot of confusion last night too trying to figure out if indeed they were out. As of now...there are classes tomorrow. Ah crap..oh well, can't complain. It feels both good to have a free day but its also quite boring. I don't really know how to feel about it.

My parents have a real wierd way of talking to me. They sort of encourage and discourage me at the same time. They support me in my choice to try for LM yet keep telling me not to push myself since I'm asthmatic(You'll understand me if you can hear how they say it). No matter who says it, I still have to try.

I know I'm violating alot of rules set by our English lessons about writing, being incohesive in my blog writing and what not. But, I guess this falls into "chaotic freewriting". I don't really have the time (or care) to make it a masterpiece for my readers. What I write is just basically what I think. Well, its only a glimpse, cuz the inner machinations of my mind are an enigma
(I'll give a cookie to the guy who can tell me who really said that.Hehe..)

I'm starting to hate 4:30 to 6...
Thats because all the possible non-academic stuff are scheduled during that time. Now my incredibly free sched is now incredibly full. Thats the demanding LM activities, other possible org activities, teachers scheduling make-up classes and more. Its even more inconvenient if its raining like today. I got home to an already flooded village and an angry dad. It sucks to have classes suspended and your not included since your college already. I still haven't found my Arnis jacket, which if you didn't know I somehow "misplaced" last Tuesday. Im starting to have a headache... And the one thing that keeps nagging at the back of my head is; "When did Superman have time to fool around with Lois Lane?"

Multitasking at its best

YM is a college students bestfriend, I tell you. You could talk to 5 or more people about an assignment at the same time. Well, if I managed my time well I wouldn't be talking with 5 people at the same time about my assignments, but thats not my point.
Cramming has never been easier, not that it was ever easy in the first place.

I've been spending my time going through all this quizzes in quizilla.com (now you know why I'm cramming right now :p) because, well, their right, most of the time. Its amazing actually how someone could tell you more about yourself than you could. I decided to post the results there at my sidebar cuz they could tell yo more about me than me. Besides, the anime pics look cool. Hehe. Try some of them if you like. The pics are great, arent they? Haha

Arnis is so cool! Hehe. I mean I just couldn't stop thinking, or talking about it. The techniques they taught to us are amazing, and if properly executed, or at least decently, could really kill someone. Like what Kenot said, I can't believe this is Filipino, and not many people know about it. Makes me proud to be a Filipino already. Hehe.

I took a somewhat spontaneous adventure today. It started with me and Kenot looking out the terrace of the cafeteria at the Loyola School of Theology and talking about a shortcut down to the Marikina riverbanks through Ateneo, then finding an actual way down. We decided to take it, just to see where it goes and then we found ourselves walking through Barangka(I think),across the bridge, past the LRT station, past Ligaya, and then eventually arriving at Sta Lu. We just basically walked home. I know, that really isn't like a real adventure, like how will you compare that to say, walking in another country? Well, to me that is as good an adventure as any. Doing it with a friend made the trip much more fun.

Now I have the energy to write, problem is I don't want to write. All I could thing about now is how my blog can well become a part of my Academic life. Kinda sucks right? But just kinda. The premise is funny actually . We have this lesson in English about keeping journals about what you think of to help in essay writing, and blogs fall into the category. But instead of blogs, we'll use dialetical double-entry notebooks(I just love saying really fast). In a nutshell(hehehe..) what that basically means is you write what you think about something, then after, you write what you think about what you wrote of what you thought about. Gets? Hahaha. It's fun to do, trust me.

I'm excited to start Arnis training tomorrow! Finally I'll be able to do some cool-looking stunts. Too bad I can't join the Ateneo Rifle Pistol team. Hehehe..

Wish me luck on my LM application! I hope I'll be able to pass thier rigorous training/audition process. I really like to be able to join.

Isn't July 5 Jerica's death anniversary? I believe so, and even if I'm not right, don't forget to pray for her. May she rest in peace..

I'm still not feeling so good, and college is starting to eat up all of my spare energy and enthusiasm to tell you all the things I think of my college life(if that didn't make sense to you, I just made my point). Please note I said energy and enthusiasm, not time. The one thing I could tell you guys now is that I love my Fil class discussions. I'll elaborate why sometime later. See ya the next time.

I can talk about alot of things right now, but nah...I don't feel so good..(awww...)

I'll just type them tomorrow, and this tini-winni block of text just serves to distract you while I get some much needed sleep. Ahhh sleep..the one other thing I know I'll miss this year. I'll just see you tomorrow.