Unemployment Blues

I've been unproductive for the past week. That's what I get for trusting an EC. It's either they're really taking their sweet time making a decision, or I've mis-assessed how evil they actually are and that they have already decided to not call us back but didn't even bother the normal courtesy to inform us. Either way, I still can't believe that considering what we've done for them this past 2 months,and the "professional" relationships we have established, they'd leave us hanging like this. That's why deep down I'm actually keeping some hope that they'd still contact us soon. But I can't hope and wait forever, so I'd give them a day or two before I put my head back in the job hunting game. Also that actually; I'm still hoping that I'd get spared the tremendous hassle of another job hunt.

Surprisingly, I was somewhat looking forward to taking this job, even though research and marketing (worse, the two together, research marketing) is a field I didn't really want to get into. My primary reason for wanting to stay, aside from the shallow yet practical reason of finally having an adequately paying job over the medium-term, was the training. Yes, the workplace is stressful, but this has challenged me to become a better worker, learning habits that weren't properly inculcated into me during high school or college. I was looking forward to being forced to up my game, to level up during the short time I was planning to stay with that company.

Also, I was looking forward to learning something about marketing. Even though in principle I still don't like the idea of it, I can't deny that it has some utility. And utility to me, though I wouldn't want to stick to that field in the future, I would appreciate gaining some potentially useful knowledge and skills from the stuff I was gonna do.

Now my mom tells me to give them until Wednesday before I formally job hunt once more. The idea of it still sucks but what can I do. This is what happens when you place your hope and trust in an EC.