Ann’s random story.

Ann telling me a random story at Jun’s b-day got me thinking. What was that about? It’s the subject; it wasn’t something you’d just casually blurt out. Was it some sort of hint or signal? Is there more to it or am I just over thinking? Was it really just a ‘random’ story?

I like AnN, but I haven’t thought about seriously doing something about it. Plan AnN doesn’t go further than intelligence gathering. Integration was successful (haha, use of CO terms concepts begin) was successful during finals week, and after some investigating all I got was that she’s not into relationships or even a hint of wanting one, nor notion of teenage romance; basically, all I sense is this wall. The tentative plan therefore was unchanged: continue casual chats and probing questions at every possible opportunity to see if there are any chinks in that wall or if there is any hint of her responding whilst trying to become closer as friends.

Haven’t been able to see her often this past couple months, but then in Shakeys I managed to talk to her again. It was just small talk, but then she suddenly shared this random story of hers.

It was inconsequential and unnecessary, but the topic only made it curious. It was the type of story that’s significant for you and won’t share unless you want to tell someone else about it as a form of catharsis, in which case it means you are close and trusted enough to be confided with a personal story, or if not, it’s not worth sharing because the other person wouldn‘t understand.

Too bad events cut our talk short and I wasn‘t able to explore more what’s behind the story. But it started troubling me. Was this a sign that she thinks we’re already close enough for her to be able to confide this random personal story of hers? Is she hinting that she really doesn’t entertain thoughts of getting into a relationship even if she likes the guy meaning I have a bug’s chance against a windshield of ever getting anywhere with her? Or in the end, is it really just a random story?

Argh. Girls and their mind games. Next time, groundwork.