Inspiration

Update: Life back to normal. Not lethargic anymore as stated below. Now I need the inspiration to write a short story. Next week will be an academic week, long tests and quizzes scheduled all over the place so I'll need to work on my short story fairly soon or risk losing myself beneath reviewing and the like. Sir Pulan said it should be realistic, and to make it easy he said we should draw from experience. Now if drawing from experience is the case, what is there better to write about than a page from one's lovelife? Nah, that'll be too cheesy. Though it won't be that hard for me, I have enough material to make a telenovela with. Ha, I just reminded myself that I never really forgot about that. Its always been there, at the back of my head, annoying whenever something reminds me of it, and believe me, there's always something to remind me of it. I must clear my head of this - "distraction". Something should inspire me to write about something soon. Something else. Where are the muses when you need them?

Feeling lethargic.....

Sorry if I had to use that word, I had just been seeing it all the time when I play Cybernations. It means feeling as if you have no energy and no interest in doing anything, which is exactly what I've been feeling the past few days. Its the second day classes have been cancelled, can't really cheer for that cuz I've been dying to do something worthwhile. I'm so bored that when I wake up from sleep I feel even more bored. I even haven't been able to update my blog (until now anyway) and add the new things I've been planning like a shoutbox. And the rain, my God the rain.. I haven't seen that amount of water fall before. I was like, "Damn that's alot of water". Can't go to school, watch a movie, or even play with my friends in the local shop. Oh well, better just study for that test we'll have this friday...

NAKAKA ASAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My parents have finally put their foot down: NO MOUNTAINCLIMBING. Its....UGHHH!!! Annoying!!! They won't even let me try!! Freakin ^&*%$^*&(!!!!! I don't know if I'll just be a good son and listen to their advice guided by wisdom,tempered by time or be independent and confront them to what I like or just backdoor my way to what I want. Its just,.. AGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! %*%$^$@#$&%$&&!

Sadista ang mga nasa ESS! Haha. Imagine making us drink a mix of Raw egg, Kimchi, Wasabi and Tomato Sauce! It was ok actually, and once you get to the Kimchi bits it wasn't that...disgusting.. That was part of a series of challenges they made us do in the ESS orsem. it was alot of fun and I got to meet alot of new friends. I met my classmates who are ES majors during the orsem. They were surprised to see me there, but I just entertained them with my application story(for those of you who don't know, I'm suppose to choose ES, not DS). They say I should shift, but meh...I guess i'm fine where I am already. Still, I'll always be an environmentalist and maybe an "ES major" at heart. Hehe.

Now somebody just said I'm judgemental, but don't want to tell me why. Now I wonder, WHY? Not just why do they think I'm judgemental, but also why they don't want to tell me. I like to hear honest opinions about myself(now just because you read this don't go peppering me with your opinions all at once) so that I know what I'm like to other people. Now I wonder, why am I judgemental?

Must....learn....TIME MANAGEMENT!!!

Things just suddenly piled up on me. Next week I have a talk to attend on monday, 6k runs M-W-F, home org GA which I'll probably miss anyway, a project proposal in LM,a report for ES lab and 5 mini-esssays due by friday, a long test also, and a benefit concert that I still have to make up my mind on attending. Well, I guess I can't really complain - I mean, I still do have a pretty easy schedule if you ask some of the older students. Like what Kram said, "Learning is one thing... Applying is another."

My parents are still trying to discourage me from my application to the Loyola Mountaineers, saying I'm too "frail" to do something like that. Even if I don't want to tell them, what I want is to prove something to myself - That I can do it. I want to push myself to my limit, even it that means I'll have to go behind their back or fight them for it face to face. And even if I can't make it, I'll be happy that I at least tried to do it, not just thinking what could have happened if I did.