Merry Merry Christmas!!!
Turned 17, Shattered delusions – the best birthday gift I ever got

It's been 10 days since my birthday and I've been putting off updating my blog because I either wasn't feeling too industrious to type or was just too bored to do it, but mostly because of Christmas parties. My birthday always coincides with Christmas parties. Now I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing; good because it frees me (most of the time) from the responsibility of treating people and bad because it means people won’t be giving me two gifts. I don’t really mind (/care) if people don’t give me gifts. I’m not materialistic. What I do appreciate are experiences, and with this set of parties the experiences were amazing.

My block really had to set our Christmas party on my birthday, and initially I didn’t like it. The Christmas party though was a blast. We had it in Icai’s house, which is now on my list of top 10 largest houses I’ve seen. Anyway, from 8 to 12mn we just ate, played pool sang along, rough housed around and generally bonded. Well, that’s what most people did. There was something else behind closed doors. Continuing, it was a great experience because it was the time I really felt that I was finally “part of the block.” It’s hard to explain. See from the start I’ve felt that I was “detached” from my block. I felt there was some kind of wall preventing me from being close with them. I may not be making sense, but again, it’s hard to explain. But with this party we had I had the opportunity to finally shatter that wall down and open up to the block.

My second Christmas party was with ESS. As usual it was really fun because this time we had a kiddie party theme. We had some weird kiddie games and good food that made party a blast. It was different because I was entertaining a stalker…hehe

Third was back with my old high school. Yeah, I finally accepted the fact that I’m a graduate from high school and should move on, but hey, I’m an alumnus. I could sill come back.

These last 2 and a half weeks have been a whirlwind. There was this thing the week before up to my birthday that began the shattering of my old perspective in life in to something new. It was a lesson 10 months in the making, well, not counting the 2 years leading up to that 10 months, but it was worth it. I’m not one to whine about my problems concerning love life, and I won’t. It’s just this one…hah…this one...I’ll just say Fate’s a bitch. But whatever it was, however it felt it was worth it. To gain a new perspective, to have my neo-classical delusions of romantic and idealistic grandeur brutally shattered by the stone hammer of reality and practicality, was worth it. Mind you, it doesn’t mean I lost my romantic and idealistic view of life, it just means it’s now in a new light, like those priceless vases they said are shattered first and put back together before they are considered masterpieces. I had to look stupid in front of a girl, yes, but it was worth it. On second thought, it wasn’t just this time I looked stupid in front of that girl - I've looked stupid in front of her for countless times. Maybe this time will be the last. But now I’ll walk away having learned a life lesson. All things change. She gave me the best present of all, and she doesn’t even know it…

Birthday song: Kung Ayaw Mo Na sa Akin- Sugarfree
It’s a really cool song. Bathetic, and probably fits me (ask sir Serrano). Watch the video- its funny. Hehe.

Tagged

I got tagged by Icai! (Damn you...joke! hehe)

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different descriptions of their perfect lover.
2. He/she needs to mention the sex/gender of their perfect lover.
3. He/she must tag 8 more people to join this game and leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.* (I'm waving this instruction away. If you like just make your own)
4. If tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.

0.) My perfect lover is definitely a SHE

1.) Simple, and pretty- simple beauty and/or pretty simple 2.) Sweet - tipong Malambing and romantic (or mushy and sappy) 3.) Smart, even smarter than me - but not condescending, yung makakaintindi ng mga Simpsons jokes. 4.) Has a healthy sense of humor - para ma gets mga joke ko and para masaya kasama 5.) Values time spent more than money spent - tipong di high-maintenance and would like to spend time with me. 6.) Non-smoker -or else I'll make her quit 7.) Would understand if I don't call, just text or email or chat - I'm not the calling type, I'd like written para napagisipan, or in person para romantic 8.) Would accept my views, better if we have the same ones - whats the use of being an environmentalist kung malakas naman sya mag aksaya?